Futile Dreams

 I saw myself arguing with my friends. I recognized them from my school days

And I found a guy who wanted to calm down the argument. He was always like this. Half laid back

Suddenly I realized that I was arguing for something pointless. And at that movement I realized I was in a dream. For May be a second I was in a dream and I realized it was dream.

I woke up and realized these friends have been from a life 25 years ago. I don't know where they are and haven't seen them for decades

A few minutes after waking up I realized I spent a good part of my life achieving nothing. My parents shifted from rural backgrounds built themselves a career and home. I don't have even decent savings

Obituary to Life

 Today, I received a message about a friend whose mother passed away. He was no close friend of mine and it might have been decades since I met him.

But he is my age and then I realized, I might be entering a period when we have to lose our dear friends and then it dawned on me that I took might not have much time left

I might too go away without seeing the spring

This Mother's Day fell on a Sunday

 This Sunday I had this urge to go to Church. It is not a easy thing as I have to drive 80 kms and back. But I decided to honour this urge and drive on. On the way while listening to the stereo and in the Church, I don't know why the prayers to Mother Mary kept touching a chord. 

I am not a person who worships Mary, but belong to the denomination that respects her. Later in the day I learnt that it was the Mother's Day. Day where mothers and their role are celebrated

There is no better icon for a Mother's Day than Mary. Deeply misunderstood in her times, got pregnant before she was married and that too in a patriarchal society. She was nearly abandoned and then had to flee her country, gave birth , alone and in a  cattle shed. Had to see her son drawing ire of the establishment and then get killed at 33. She is still despised by her own sect, the Jews

Can we see a better example

One-Five years

  Only when I opened my email yesterday did I realize that I had completed 15 years in this humungous organisation

And maybe it takes quite a while to realize that you have ended up in the wrong place and you have sunk too deep to get out.

And the reason I opened my email was to send out a complaint against a branch in my own organisation who refused to open a account. The people around are changing so fast, and you are stuck up as a fossil